19 October 2023

First thots after waking

What do you want to do now? Reflect on the badness of your existence? OK. What rating do you give it, on a scale of one to ten, with ten being the worst? You give it a seven or eight? That sounds pretty bad; I feel sorry for you. Next time, you should try to avoid getting born. – Whoa, watch out for the fate! – Just now the fate swept you up and placed you back in a womb.

What do you think life will be like this time around? Remember how humans were manipulating the building blocks of their beings, last time you were living? You might have to endure a series of medical injections and procedures after you pass through the matrix. Or maybe they’ll do their meddling prior to birth. On the other hand, you might not be a human at all. You might be a rabbit. Would that be better or worse? An advanced type of alien would be best: then you could invade the planet with the rest of your species and establish a new Paradiso.

And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works. And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death. [Revelation 20:13-14]

I always thought that when beings died, their corpse dissolved back into the earth from whence it came while their spirit returned unto God who first breathed it forth. And my other assumption was that the souls of the dead would end up either in the sky (in Heaven) or underground (in Hades); but according to the above quotation, the dead go either into the sea or death or hell. I’d like to know what happens when hell gets cast into the lake of fire. I bet there’s going to be a loud explosion then, and lots of smoke.

P.S.

I’ve gotten to the point where I barely ride my bicycle anywhere anymore, because all the motorized vehicles on the streets are maniacs: their rude impatience has grown life-threatening. I mostly travel on foot, now. 

But even walking has lately become intolerable. Just yesterday, for instance, I was heading north by northwest on a footpath, and a trio of large suburban moms appeared approaching from the opposite direction; all three of them had dogs on leashes, and they were striding side by side, rather than single file, and taking up the entirety of the path. Then, when it came time for us to pass each other, none of them budged an inch to let me thru: I had to step aside into the grass and walk around their whole party; not even the hounds thought fit to share the road. If the grass had been lava or a steep cliff, I might have been injured. Plus, not one of them acknowledged my greeting or returned it, when I smiled and waved and said: “Top of the morning.”

3 comments:

annaname said...

I've gotten to the point where I reluctantly cut my grass lawn for the first time this year, yet, my brain is lava, my heart has long been cast into the Dead Sea and I desperately miss reading your diary entries & your mind.

I hope you are well? A breath of fresh Jupiter thots sure would be nice:)

Bryan Ray said...

O it's good to hear from you, and yes I'm totally healthy and well, thanks! I just fell out of the habit of using all the social networks, even this blog... I've been happily spending my time in the world of books... Thanks for caring; and thanks for the comments on these last couple posts! I owe you a letter; and if I write more diary entries or creative texts (as is my will) then I'll surely share them online — let any delay in doing so be excused by this note from Wallace Stevens: "In the presence of the violent reality of war, consciousness takes the place of the imagination."

annaname said...

I couldn't possibly have put it better myself - I know exactly what Wallace Stevens means..
Besides that, it's so good to hear from you and to learn that you are indeed all safe and sound! I was somehow beginning to worry slightly, besides the obvious fact that I myself have been weirdly... yes, only painfully conscious, but creatively withering lately. It's a strange, almost split-personality feeling to still try and keep (other people's) things running, considering the state of things. Reading your creative texts really helped me stay sane and reignited my mind, I thank you for that!
I am very much looking forward to hear more from you (no pressure though, obvs) both on here and in the mail:)

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